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I’d like to introduce you to my friend, Rebecca. I met Rebecca through our lifegroup at church and every week we meet she always stretches me and challenges me.

Give it up for …. REBECCA!

Nine year old child (after seeing this commercial on TV): I need to buy E one of those so she can sell them outside in the winter.

I wasn’t sure I had heard him correctly so I asked him to explain.

He wants her to make the cupcakes and sell them outside in the winter so he doesn’t have to share his money with her. You know, I can’t think of a single time he has ever had to share his money with her. Unless of course you count the money we use for the house payment, utilities, food, etc.

Oh and the sister he’s talking about, his only sister, she’s three. I’m pretty sure there are laws that protect her from child labor.

And why winter? Why not autumn, or spring, or summer? But winter?

I’ve been thinking about love lately. Not love the feeling but love in the way Jesus showed others. Does my life and actions reflect the way Jesus taught us to love?

Every once in awhile I get caught up in myself and will hear a song that will knock me off my boat.

• How Do You Love by Collective Soul I interpret this song to mean that when your day/life is crap how do you respond? How do you treat others, your kids, your spouse? How about that driver that just cut you off. How do you treat him?
• This Is Your Life by Switchfoot “This is your life. Are you who you want to be” That line alone makes me think about how I have been behaving. Have I been witchy mama? Have I been loving to others or have I been so absorbed in myself that I don’t even see anyone but me?
• Versions of Violence by Alanis Morissette The whole song speaks to me. She points out subtle acts of violence that we use to hurt others.

What songs inspire you?

My husband wanted me to listen to a song so he pulled the video up on YouTube. It happened to be “Rise Above This” by Seether.

This song spoke to me. I have been there. I have been to the point that I wanted to end it all. Yes, I am talking about suicide. I am talking about wanting to down pills and never wake up again. I’m talking about slitting my wrists and bleeding to death. I didn’t want to live anymore and it wasn’t very long ago. Possibly a year ago…possibly less.

I’m not sure of the time period nor was this the first time I had contemplated suicide. It was however the first time I told anyone about it. I was scared that I would actually try to kill myself but mess up and have to deal with the aftermath. I chickened out because I was afraid I wouldn’t succeed.

I am now thankful that I didn’t attempt to take my life as I can now see that it would have been the ultimate rejection to my husband and children. Also, my life isn’t that bad which is something I couldn’t figure out. Why I wanted to die.

I have everything I need, pretty much everything I want…so why did I want to die? Why was life so unbearable? I don’t know. I don’t have the answers. I do know that I spoke up and ended up getting the help I needed and am better now.

I thank God that I have loving friends and family who helped me through this difficult time period in my life. You know who you are because I poured my heart out to you and you stayed with me while I bawled and let it all out. You helped me find myself and rise above this.

This is too cool! From someone who watched the movie Dirty Dancing (Ultimate Edition) till the tape just about broke and had all the words memorized I absolutely loved this! You know the final dance scene…well this couple did it as their first dance…It is awesome! Makes me want to watch the movie again and again and again. I still crank up the radio whenever that song comes on because of all the memories of watching Dirty Dancing and having the kids I babysat beg me to stop it and please don’t play it AGAIN…ahhh.