Music

I’ve been thinking about love lately. Not love the feeling but love in the way Jesus showed others. Does my life and actions reflect the way Jesus taught us to love?

Every once in awhile I get caught up in myself and will hear a song that will knock me off my boat.

• How Do You Love by Collective Soul I interpret this song to mean that when your day/life is crap how do you respond? How do you treat others, your kids, your spouse? How about that driver that just cut you off. How do you treat him?
• This Is Your Life by Switchfoot “This is your life. Are you who you want to be” That line alone makes me think about how I have been behaving. Have I been witchy mama? Have I been loving to others or have I been so absorbed in myself that I don’t even see anyone but me?
• Versions of Violence by Alanis Morissette The whole song speaks to me. She points out subtle acts of violence that we use to hurt others.

What songs inspire you?

My husband wanted me to listen to a song so he pulled the video up on YouTube. It happened to be “Rise Above This” by Seether.

This song spoke to me. I have been there. I have been to the point that I wanted to end it all. Yes, I am talking about suicide. I am talking about wanting to down pills and never wake up again. I’m talking about slitting my wrists and bleeding to death. I didn’t want to live anymore and it wasn’t very long ago. Possibly a year ago…possibly less.

I’m not sure of the time period nor was this the first time I had contemplated suicide. It was however the first time I told anyone about it. I was scared that I would actually try to kill myself but mess up and have to deal with the aftermath. I chickened out because I was afraid I wouldn’t succeed.

I am now thankful that I didn’t attempt to take my life as I can now see that it would have been the ultimate rejection to my husband and children. Also, my life isn’t that bad which is something I couldn’t figure out. Why I wanted to die.

I have everything I need, pretty much everything I want…so why did I want to die? Why was life so unbearable? I don’t know. I don’t have the answers. I do know that I spoke up and ended up getting the help I needed and am better now.

I thank God that I have loving friends and family who helped me through this difficult time period in my life. You know who you are because I poured my heart out to you and you stayed with me while I bawled and let it all out. You helped me find myself and rise above this.

I’ve just been traumatized to learn that the song All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You by Heart is about a woman who can’t get pregnant by her husband, so she goes and picks up a stranger off the street to get knocked up by (poor grammar, I know.) Just check out the lyrics here. (All links should open in a new window.)

I honestly feel like I’ve been ripped off. While the song has never been a favorite tune or anything, I’ve always enjoyed it when it came on. I just presumed it was about a woman who loved her guy so much that she just had to express it physically.

Are there really women so heart(!)lessly cruel as to do something like that to their men? And how did Heart come up with the idea for a song like that? Time to hit the Wikipedia.

Ok, according to the Wikipedia article, the song was written by “Mutt” Lange and I’ve been living under a rock for almost two decades. While the question of who has been answered, I’d really like to know how (and why) on earth people come up with stuff like this.

If this is the kind of thing I learn when I crawl out from under my rock, I’m going to go right back under there.